fool 'n hungry

12-2-2017 Sunday   It's 3 in the morning and I can't stop thinking about you, no matter what I can't shake it off. Your voice keeps ringing in my head and I told myself that today is the last day I am thinking about you, today is the last time I am thinking about the things I like about you. The corner of your eyes and how they crinkle when you smile and the color of your eyes how they become brown when you smile and turn a shade darker when you are serious. How you throw your head back when you laugh loudly and how you shy away when someone stares at you. How your hair is all messy and brushed at the same time, how you never bother about getting a glass or a cup when you drink water, how you chug water and choke every time.  How you suck the smoke from your cigarette and exhale it instantly like it's too much to take it and how you forget to exhale the smoke when you watch something you like. How you cough every time and then promise to never do it again only to...

Promise me. Promise you what? Something, anything. Things that you don’t mean promises you can never fulfill. Why? Isn't that what people do, when they are in love, make promises they can never keep. talk big about dreams and talk small about people, do it. Lie to me, look me straight in the eyes and lie to my face, lie to me about things you want to do, lie to me about dreams, about things and choices and about me. Say something that has the ability to hurt me then tell me you care about me and apologize just to do it again. Love me ordinary like ordinary people love each other, tell me how I am different from the rest of the world then tell me I belong to a pathetic generation.  Tell me I am stupid and then tell me you don't mean that. Rant about this stupid world and then rant about how I belong to this same pathetic world. Make it worse every time make me regret falling for you say something sweet just to help me fall for you deep. drive my nerve...